01/04/2026
𖹭.ᐟ I just finished 12 years of school?! ._.
Dear diary,
6 years in elementary, 6 years in high school… and all of it just ended? Just like that????? That was fast.
2 years ago, I made a silent promise to myself, a bet with my parents, and a constant conversation with Jehovah. I said that if they let me join online classes for SHS, in return, I’d be in the top 5 ranking. That promise led me to countless battles, so many cries for help, sleepless nights, multiple migraines, panic attacks, and more. It even got to the point where I questioned myself, Am I happy? Did I make Jehovah happy? But those repeated questions made me stronger. They helped me learn the art of redirection and prioritizing. Because of that, I realized that happiness doesn’t come from the accomplishments themselves. It comes from seeing how Jehovah works through His holy spirit when you give all your burdens to Him and when you trust Him fully. Happiness came from the cheers, the comforting hugs, the words of affirmation, and the loving support from my parents, titas and titos, cousins, true friends, and from Jehovah holding my right hand. It was them who helped me stay alive despite the growing pressure and anxieties of life.
Happiness is them.
I told myself multiple times, “What did I do right anyway? I have no accomplishments. What’s the point? I didn’t receive anything. Might as well give up.” But you know what? I realized that was the stupidest thing I’ve ever said. Jehovah used His beloved servants to show me accomplishments I didn’t even notice. He gave me His love, His patience, because if He were an imperfect human, He might have grown tired of my endless rants and attempts to deviate from the right path, a wonderfully imperfect family, and friends who stick closer than brothers.
In the middle of this story, this promise, I rode a roller coaster of downs and internal struggles, moments of realization and redirection, and many ups filled with love and happiness.
So this is the end of “The Story of Lauv: High School.” A lot happened that I can’t possibly talk about, because that would mean literally writing an entire book. But those stories made me who I am today, and I’m proud of who I’ve become.
Thank you to everyone who was part of this story. I love you all.
Sincerely,
Lauv
