25/09/2025
Storytime: The Day I Stopped Blaming God
I had been praying for something specific for years. Something I was so sure was meant to be, a perfect fit for my life. I poured my heart into those prayers, convinced that if I just waited long enough, if I was just patient enough, the answer would come. I got frustrated, confused, and even a little angry. Why wasn't this happening? I couldn't understand why a good thing was being withheld from me. I quietly carried a resentment toward a God who I thought was orchestrating my suffering.
Then one day, I saw those words. It was like a lightbulb went off, a whisper from a friend:
"It's not the Will of God.", I breathed out and peace rushed in.
And in that moment, I realized something profound.
This shifted everything for me... accepting the reality that God is GOD, and I'm just...not.
It allowed me to let go of the anger and resentment I had unknowingly been holding on to. I finally forgave myself for the choices I made and forgave others for the choices they made. I no longer had to romanticize my traumas.
That same day, I found peace in surrender.
Everything changed. I realized my disappointments and frustrations were just part of my humanity, but I can't let it take over my spirit. I need to trust God with every NO. I realized holding on to "my will" was keeping me from a life of peace. This realization was both humbling and freeing. It allowed me to let go of the anger and resentment I had been carrying. I finally forgave myself for the choices I made and forgave others for the paths they took.
This isn't just my story; it's a message for anyone still waiting at a closed door. Peace isn't found in the "yes" or in the "no", but in the beautiful act of surrendering to God's perfect, perfect will.
The best path is to trust God that His plan is far greater than your own, and that He will guide you to a path you could never have imagined. Even better than the "yes" or "no" we've been praying for.
And when we find that something is not His will, may His grace give us strength in NOT trying to force a different outcome, but in accepting His guidance and trusting in His ultimate plan for us.
Whatโs a message youโd write to yourself?