14/10/2022
When did you ever underestimate yourself and refused to accept it all ?
People act in their very unusual ways when they intimately engage in relationships, enjoying inherited hobbies, needing alone time, withholding information..... but losing yourself in a head-over-heels relationship can feel very energetic and motivational !, you're weirdly attached to something so vitally important that EVERYONE ELSE must act how you expect them to. Perhaps because you don't even know yourself anymore but you're convinced you're right about how everyone else is. You rock yourself out for a while and then collectively offer yourself all to a relationship. "Very loving and tender" they say, we just love to give them our all. We pour love and attention into a relationship and then suddenly all your favorite chills and thrills are now screaming under oppression. Unfortunately, it is a natural default pattern, toxic for both you and the impossible terms of your relationship. Taking the back seat in a relationship is like throwing away your own oxygen mask out the window in a flight and then trying to share your partner's mask. You know how on the planes, when they do the safety demonstration, they tell you to put on your own oxygen mask first because you will die if try to help everyone else first. And when your friends all say thesame thing about you and sometimes you personally know this too well, it is true because to everyone one else, you come off like a life long-suffering, put-upon martyr about to make a master's sacrifice. And if your currently going in this half-life direction you're headed in, my friend it's time to get up and let this be a wake up call. Because as time pass by, you look around and realize your were completely lost in a unique captivity of negativity.