08/02/2026
I spent years living in two places at once.
Replaying what already happened, and bracing for what hadn’t. Carrying old pain into new moments like it was still happening. Treating every future disaster like it was already decided.
I didn’t figure that out in a quiet room. I figured it out the hard way—while stuck in the same loops of suffering I wrote about in Idiot Factory.
Chapter 8 is where I finally sat with it: how we leave the present, and how that keeps the pain going.
The video of me reading from the book in this blog article comes straight from that chapter. Not polished advice. Just what started working when life was still loud and messy.
If any of this sounds familiar, here’s the full post where I breakdown what I had to learn about mindfulness to stay alive in the present:
https://www.truthtoldsideways.com/post/mindfulness-in-the-chaos-how-to-stop-living-in-the-past-and-future