07/27/2023
Welcome to this divine space that I could never have created on my own. The Lord planted this tiny seed in my heart many years ago as a young wife and busy mom. The seed overwhelmed me at the time, but I held it close and nurtured it. When it began to take root I would dig it up and toss it out. The fear of being known and seen was haunting. Yet as those seedlings were tossed, His holy wind blew and carried and scattered and nourished them until this time of planting. Complete surrender comes in His perfect timing.
My soul has always deeply loved words. I loved poems as a little girl and constantly scribbled out sentences that rhymed on pretty, pastel notepads. Beautiful journals and sharpened pencils still bring childlike joy. My home is filled with life-giving Scripture and other lovely words that point me to Jesus in every room. This love for writing has consumed me though I have buried it under piles of excuses (and piles of laundry) over the years. But the longing to tell the stories He’s written on my heart constantly returns.
My days have been spent building a home and marriage, family and faith. Treasured, messy years spent teaching, playing and loving 3 curious little boys who have now grown taller than me. 30 bumpy, beautiful years of sharing life with my loving Husband who gives me the gift of laughter. A season of deep investment in ministry and the mission of the church. Sharing in deep suffering and deep joy with the best of friends. Making irreplaceable family memories. Stepping out in risk, and cowering back in fear. Days and nights of praying without ceasing and lamenting over the darkness that inevitably comes to steal, kill, and destroy. It’s difficult to put life in a paragraph, but these moments have been the absolute happiest, hardest, and holiest.
I am incredibly grateful for my life in Christ and that He continues to love this prodigal daughter. As life continues to change I realize that I have hidden myself in the most secret of places. My authentic voice has been suppressed to a whisper. I know my unworthiness, yet His promptings and invitations to come as I am are irresistible. This is my worship. I have wrestled with and longed for this harvest—this reaping of words. I humbly pray that each will serve and sustain in ways only the Spirit of God can accomplish.
Join me today in saying yes to the beautiful thing He's called you to. I don't know if it's happy or hard, but I know that's it holy.
~🤍Kelley