I will go here as often as I can until the owner sells the property and I am no longer allowed. I would buy this spot, to keep it frozen in time. Financially that is out of my reach. So I will photograph it at every season, when I no longer can go there, at least I have the photo's to remember. January 28th, 2015 was one of the worst nights of my life! I will never forget the Facebook post that he
said goodbye through. Or the next worst decision of my life, to call my youngest son, who was closest to where I could tell his GPS said he was, and asked him to go make sure his brother was there. I was on the phone when my youngest drove up, and I was on the way. My youngest said: "He's fine Mom, he's just sitting in his car." He gets out of his car walks towards his brothers and I hear him scream "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" I never heard the gun shot! I hung up the phone and called 911, frantic knowing he had shot himself. I was a mess, that poor 911 operator. I was still 2 miles away, they could have been 100. I knew he was gone. I will never forget that lonely dirt road at the end of January, the darkness the flashing lights of emergency vehicles, the feeling of helplessness, wanting to just hold him one last time and fix his owie. I couldn't fix this owie, this was beyond me. This was Tim, He died that night. He was going to College for Neuroscience, he knew he was mentally ill and he knew there was no cure. He didn't want to take the medicine because it would have left him catatonic. This is the last picture I know that was taken of him. He had an illness as real as any Cancer, Heart Disease, Diabetes but this one is so misunderstood. My life changed that night. My youngest son's life did also. Each person who is a Survivor of Suicide is changed forever! Suicide still carries astigmatism of shame for the survivors. I started the original website to sell handmade jewelry I had made as a kind of therapy to help me heal. My hands would not cooperate to allow me to continue and I needed to also do some introspection and healing. Now I am starting this site up again because I want this to be a place for healing, I want to bring awareness, I want to start a discussion and I want a place to put my art. There will be jewelry again to honor the original site. I will be not only selling high-end items, I am going to be looking for good quality handmade items from people around the US. I want this US based. Please help me market this site, and help others in the process. Suicide Prevention Hotline - TEXT CONNECT TO 741741
Call 1-800-273-8255
