24/03/2023
I'VE WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS SUNRISE!
This photo means everything to me and here's why...
My life isn't filled with wild and extreme circumstance but it is filled with every day struggles very similar to what you're living except, I had a baby very early.
I know, I know...to some of you, this isn't a big deal. Others are thinking I created my own "mess". Regardless of how I got there, I became a parent at a young age despite coming from a stable childhood.
But see, that was the hard part, no one EVER expected that from me of all people.
People said I ruined my life, I would never be successful and to just give up on any dream I've ever had.
I was young....I believed it.
Life went on with endless limiting beliefs speeding through my head until I looked at my son and it just felt wrong. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that I was told that THIS tiny human "ruined" anything? He brought joy and a love I never knew existed...HOW? How could they say that?
I tried so hard, refusing to let my son or anyone see how those words affected me all those years.
I wanted him to be proud of me. I wanted him to see how much being his mom meant to me. It was everything, I may have been young but I made sure I was the best mom he could have.
I put my head down and worked to provide. I then had a second son and worked even harder after getting divorced. All they ever saw was me working.
I wanted them to know I did EVERYTHING to not let them feel like they had "less of a mom" than other kids so, I worked.
They grew up and I was left with a career that by the end, sucked the life out of me and I realized that in a sense..."they" were right....I was so busy providing for my kids that my own dreams were stored away on a dusty old shelf in my head. I had given up on them.
My ultimate dream: travelling, collecting memories and experiences with those I love and having the ability to earn a paycheck while on vacation.
Sounds too good to be true doesn't it?
On this trip, THIS is the moment I realized it became reality and it's the best feeling.
Getting paid on vacay, that's the life!
I'll never forget this sunrise....never. 🌅
