12/08/2017
I've spent a lot more time than usual thinking about the time it takes to put into making art lately, especially the time it takes vs. the gains.
The thing is, I've mostly been thinking about the time vs. financial gains. It seems absolutely impossible to win in this way. If you really want to make art, you have to figure out how to make it work financially. My problem? I automatically think that means you have to figure out how to make money off of your artwork.
There are so many people who make art just to make art. That's someone I've always wanted to be. And then anxious thoughts about money get in the way. "If I want to be a successful photographer, I have to sell my photos. I have to do portraits. I have to do weddings. I have to do art fairs." I don't want to do any of this - at least not for the purpose of making money! And I'm starting to realize that's okay.
It's totally okay, and fine, and legitimate, and meaningful to make art just to put it out there. It brings a spark of joy into people's daily lives. It jolts you out of your routine. It makes you remember you're alive.
And it takes time. "You can't rush art!" This statement has been playing over and over in my head for years, ever since I saw it on some Pixar short. But it wasn't until these past few weeks that I've really come to terms with it. Art takes time. And it's worth that time - the hours, the days, the weeks, the years - even if you're not making money doing it.
What matters is that you make it. And you put it out there into the world. And it makes you, and everyone around you, feel better. Or at least feel something.