03/04/2021
Waiting on the Lord
By Elder Jeffrey R. Holland
I guess this was something I needed to learn from October General conference. I needed to be reminded to trust and wait on the Lord. I shared some of my thoughts about that in the last post on Elder Jaggi’s talk. I think that was why I felt I needed to study patience after hearing and reading Elder Whiting’s talk. They were, and are, teaching me and preparing me.
The last 3 months have been a struggle for me as I try to understand and find my place in a new role. As I have prayed, cried, and pled to know what I am supposed to be doing, time and time again, I get the feeling to “wait”, to "stand still”.
I already feel like I am doing that. I already feel stuck. I want to be doing, to be acting, to be solving problems, to be teaching, to be sharing, to be needed. My promptings are not telling me to avoid any of those. My promptings are telling me to wait on the Lord, to trust Him AND His timing. So hard.
Elder Holland states, “Christianity is comforting, but it is often not comfortable.” I feel this. Sundays are the hardest days for me. Sundays are the days that emphasize all that I am struggling with. My loneliness, my hurts, my heartache, my pride. But I do find comfort in the sacrament, and in my daily time with scriptures and prayer. I do find myself echoing the words of Joseph Smith, “How long, O Lord, how long?” and looking to the example of Emma Smith who trusted, waited, and supported.
“Let your hearts be comforted concerning Zion; for all flesh is in mine hands; be still and know that I am God.” D&C 101:16