17/05/2026
It was that time of the year again…
I received my yearly goal setting email in my inbox from HR. In my head I am thinking ‘not again’, I automatically deleted it!
One week led into the other and my reminders kept popping up until I literally left it right to the last minute and the time was NOW.
“What are my GOALS for the next 12 months?”
For some reason, this hit me differently than previous years.
So I jotted down some dribble, talked about wanting more confidence, talked about what I thought ‘they wanted to hear’ with the odd ‘N/A’ added to every second dialog box.
The truth…
I didn’t even know what I wanted anymore, I was so confused!
After 20 + years of giving my everything to everyone else in the Corporate world, I realised I needed something more and as scary as it was, I had to unpack it even though I wasn’t ready.
I started to process the last two decades and second guessed everything.
“What am I doing with my life”
“It’s official, I’m bored”
“There is nothing left for me here”
“Maybe it's time I looked for a new job”
“I’m at a dead end”
And what I realised is in this moment of confusion, identity sabotage and complete overwhelm… was that for the last 20 odd years, I had been so focused on doing all of the right things that I lost myself.
🙄 I gave all of my energy to my job with minimal energy left for my family.
🫣 I had been running in overdrive with no real reward.
😵💫 My time was no longer mine and I was spread thin.
🤦🏼♀️ It felt like every time I needed time off, I had to ask my ‘parent’ for permission.
😤 No matter how much I earned, I was still living paycheck to paycheck (and for what?).
I no longer recognised ME
I didn’t have a hobby
I had no get up and go
I had dreams but that’s where they stayed.
And then…
It was Friday night, the kids were ‘semi’ in bed and I was sitting on my couch, feet up, TV on in the background and hubby by my toes. Both of us taking a moment to absorb ourselves into our phones, nothing but silence and unwinding from the week that was, scrolling like we were speed dating… but then I STOPPED.
And there she was…a family of 6, mum in the middle, arms wide open, everyone smiling, cruising through the tropical waters of Thailand on a gondola. I couldn’t scroll past. And before I knew it… I'd typed 'INFO' and was spilling my story to a complete stranger.
From this one moment I felt that fire in my belly, a tingle in my body.
Could this be what I need? Could this be my GOAL? Who said my goal had to be work related?
And for days my algorithm was on fire, throwing me every business opportunity under the sun! But I was locked in, I was soaking in as much information as I possibly could, I felt the obsession start to build. The feeling of having something for ME, was undeniably a fulfilling emotion.
What I eventually realised is that I was looking at all of this wrong, a new role wasn’t going to fix things, quitting my job definitely wasn’t the answer, it was a NEW direction.
Working full time in the Corporate world is no longer my future.
And that's when I made the decision to build my online business.
Not for the money. Not to prove anything. But to take back my time, to actually be present for my kids, and to finally do something for ME.
And for the first time in 20 + years… I get to set my goals on my own terms.