04/02/2026
*Disclaimer: What I talk about in this video is only my own personal experience. It also only represents a very small portion of how autism affects me and my life. I also acknowledge the immense privilege I hold in this community. I am high-masking and have relatively low support needs (not to be mistaken for none), and the voices of those who are lower-masking, have higher support needs, or are BIPOC are too often dismissed.*
Today is Autism Acceptance Day.
And whether or not you believe I’m autistic will probably depend on your current level of knowledge of what autism actually is and how it can present.
Which, for most people, is quite limited.
This may lead some of you who know about my math wizard brain to think “yeah, that adds up” but only due to a stereotype (one that can be harmful to the autism community), and others may think “there’s no way,” because of everything I’ve been able to achieve through many years of over-functioning. Or even because of how I look (spoiler alert: autism doesn’t have a “look”).��It’s also important to understand that what most of you have seen of me and my life, is only what I’ve chosen to share here over the years.
Deciding to finally undergo an assessment, and finding out after multiple multi-hour sessions that I was indeed autistic, meant that I was finally able to put down the massive cognitive and emotional load of spending every single day wondering what was wrong with me.
Because there was nothing wrong.
My brain and nervous system just work in a different way. And they work in a way that our current systems are often in direct opposition to.��And because of this, I stopped feeling like an alien for the first time in my life.��I’m finally sharing this with you now because I had to work through a lot of grief, shame, and internalized ableism first.
And while I know I don’t owe this information about myself to anyone, and many high masking autistic people do choose to stay private (again, a privilege), I’ve made this decision because it’s what feels most aligned for me, personally.
Plus, I’ve got someone very close to me who needs to see me living without shame in this. 🫶🏼