05/09/2025
5th September 2024 changed my life forever. After a previous failed attempt, it was time for another embryo transfer. This time I had no idea what to feel, expect or do - other than have an open mind and heart. Was I anxious? Yes. Was I hopeful? Yes. Was I scared/overwhelmed/grateful/optimistic/hesitant/determined? Yes. All at once. After doing the two week wait last time on my own, I asked Jonno to book two weeks off work so we could go on holiday and take our minds off things. But the morning we left to go to Paris I knew things were different, so I went against all guidance and took a test and saw Zeke appear as a line. I stared at it, cried, couldn’t see the line for the tears, and I told Jonno it had worked this time.
If you’re struggling with fertility, you’re not alone. It feels so lonely (and you quickly learn who your friends are) so I’m here to say I’ll be your friend. If you feel overwhelmed, that’s normal. If you feel excited, that’s normal. If you are so pumped full of hormones you don’t know what day it is - that’s normal. Just know that you’re are stronger than you know and braver than you feel.
A year from our embryo transfer and I’m writing this with tears in my eyes as Zeke naps on me - I can finally say, it’s worth it. He’s here.
“Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you”. Jeremiah 1:5