19/06/2025
"I CAN'T STOP HAVING S3X."
It started when I was 17, after my uncle m0lêsted me. I thought I could bury the feeling, but my body refused to forget. In school, I became "that girl". The one who couldn’t say no when any mân touched my waist or whispered "you fine" in my ear. By the time I turned 23, I had slêpt with over 50 mên.
Now I am a 28-year-old lady. Pretty, well-shaped, everything a man would want. I'm a hard worker but my flaw is that I am addicted to s3x. I can’t stay a full week without slêëping with a man. I have tried. God knows I have prayed, fasted, cried... but my body keeps betraying me. I have even slêpt with my boss at work, my neighbor, my cousin’s husband and worst of all, the man that intends to marry my elder sister. I could slêëp with anybody. Whether married, single, young, old, broke or rich... as long as he can satïsfy me. I even chased some myself just to feel that quick rêlëase. I would delete numbers after a night but cry the next morning when the guilt returned.
Two months ago, I lost a 2-year relationship with a serious man. He said my kïtty was too wild for him. Also, my friends think I’m just being hot-blooded. They laugh when I confess I want to stop.
I do feel shame after every r0und but the urge comes back stronger the following day. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and cry because this is not how I was raised. My mother, who is a deaconess, singlehandedly raised me. All was good not until that experience. But I was too scared to speak out.
I have been to pastors, they prayed and poured oil on my head. I even slept in church for 3 days, but nothing changed. I don’t have a boyfriend now because no man can trust me. I chêat with no control.
Last week, I received a new WhatsApp message from a married man. He wanted to send me ₦300k just to come to hïs h0tel room. But I refused because I didn’t want the money. I just wanted hïs b0dy. I also didn't want to be identified as an a$hewo even though I have this pr0blem.
