13/01/2026
Nobody would understand. When you fall, everybody will just see your failures. They will never understand how hard you fight your battles. They will only see your weakness. They will never look at all the times you picked up yourself, crawled, stood up, and fight again. For all those years, being alone in all your battles, you never knew how to ask for help because when you do everybody looks down on you.
I tried the easy way thinking I would be able to fly high, but it crashed my world and lost everything. Lost the will the live, but my heart knew I need to get back up again, face each morning, fight all my battles with undying heart.
I don't need cheers and appalause, nor any recognition anymore. I will keep on fighting my battles silently but with all my strength.
Maybe I just need to be reminded, I need to always remind myself what GOD promised "In everything you do, put GOD first, and HE will direct you and crown your efforts with success" Proverbs 3:6. I know in my heart what I have been searching for. But temptations kept pulling me away. I still believe in HIS promise "But seek first the KINGDOM of GOD and HIS righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you" Matthew 6:33.
"For all that is in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and its desires; but the one who does the will of God abides forever". John 2:16-17. I may havr lost everything but I now believe GOD has a purpose and HE woke me up from my illussions and delusions that all these worldly aspects are worthless in HIS eyes.
All I knew is that everytime I got astray, everytime I walked the wrong path, GOD always, never ceasing, pats me and make me walk back to the right path no matter how hard that would be. I may have forgotten who I am, but my goal remained, the goal of knowing HIM. BATHALA, PLEASE KEEP MY FAITH ALIVE AND FLAMES BURNING.
