08/05/2026
One of the worst feelings is losing the gut and motivation for the thing you're supposed to love the most.
Maybe starting younger and learning things earlier would've made a difference. Maybe becoming more advanced at it sooner was the best thing a person could do.
It sucks having enough passion for something, but not enough skills to match it. The things I actually specialized in don't even feel like they're working perfectly anymore. It feels like I'm being left behind.
I can't even find ways to solve the things I used to be good at. And honestly, that hurts the most.
I still care about this so much, but I don't know how to bring the passion back when all I feel is frustration with myself.
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