01/03/2025
I got to wake up today.
My brother didnāt.
19 years young.
My heart is so heavy and the tears have been nonstop.
Just yesterday he was telling me that I need to plan a vacation to come see him so we can go venture out to all the foodie places heād love to show me in Valencia.
My dad has lost not one but two children now. Two of us remain and my heart breaks for him.
Life is so short.
Life isnāt fair.
Tomorrow is never promised.
I had the sweetest brother. My only brother. His name was Pedro and he was kind, intelligent, and super loving. He hugged me a million times a day when I went to visit him a few years ago in Spain.
He only spoke Spanish and I, English, but despite our language differences, we made the most of our situation.
We took turns watching shows on Netflix where one of us could listen to our native audio while the other had to read the subtitles, he played tour guide for me and my mom during the time we visited himā at that time he was 14 years old and he took us all around the town.
He was so brave but he had to be.
After our dad divorced his mom, our dad went back to Romania.
Pedroās mom would spend every cent she had on alcohol and drugs and it drove our father to divorce.
There was never any food in his fridge because of this and he texted my father about this issue often.
I remember how happy he was to spend time with me and my mom especially when we would go out to eat.
We ate paella and potatoes bravas so much in a week that my mom told us to quit ordering the same dish every time we went out but we ignored her and continued to do so. š¤£
We picked out new shoes together and sported them all over Torrent, Valencia, and Barcelona.
I made him take pictures with me even though he hated taking pictures and thank God I did because without these documented moments, I would be crushed even more than I currently am. šø
We cried when it was time for me to return home to the States. I hugged him hard and reassured him I would see him againā¦.. but I was wrong.
And that kills me.
Iām sorry I couldnāt keep my promise, Pedro. I will find you in another lifetimeā¦that Iām sure of.
Te amo siempre, hermano. Rest Easy ā¤ļø
