09/05/2025
9/5/2020. I’m 5 years sober today!!!!!
Every time I sit down to try and write something to summarize this milestone, I just end up in tears. Heavy tears.
Tears of gratitude and joy I do not deserve. Tears of pain and regret for the years I let booze control me.
“That feels aggressive- alcohol controlled you?” you might say, and yes, I’ll reply, booze restrained me.
It kept me in a cage - fearful of having, and knowing a life without it. Drunken nights and anxious mornings was my life on repeat for so many years. I silently struggled, never admitting just how bad it got.
Then one fateful day, I was forced to look in the mirror and ask myself: could I give it up? And I did. Cold turkey.
Not an ounce, not a pint, not a sip of alcohol for 5 years, and I’m proud of myself for it! I’m proud of the way I’ve broken out of the shell of a person I was. I’m proud of the risks I’ve taken. I’m proud of my new understanding of reliance on God.
I know some of you, even those who are closest to me, may never really understand. You may have thought, “you’re fine, just drink less” …but this is how the devil can trick us. (I was not fine.)That’s why the old adage, “you never really know what someone is going through” rings so true. Showing up through love, support, and encouragement is how I’ve been able to find the other side of this.
I’m as independent as they come, and yet I long for friendship, fellowship, and love. I’m beyond grateful for the people who have loved me unconditionally since day 1 of my sobriety. It’s not easy, and yeah, some days I just want that damn spicy margarita on the patio with my chips and salsa!!! But booze just isn’t worth it.
🧡If you find yourself in a loop of living solely for the party, or the 5 o clock happy hour, or making up absolutely any excuse to drink alcohol, please DM me. I’m here to support you on your day 1.
💛Although I haven’t been on much lately, I appreciate all the love on this page. I just wanted to show somebody a life without alcohol can still be FUN! 🤩
