10/13/2024
Observation And Analysis......
I am learning that people's dispositions are fluid, meaning that they change, and that people can go from 0 to 100 either quickly or not so quickly.
But.....
In attempting to do the right thing, it turned out to be the wrong thing, and I had a situation that above sentence speaks about and in that moment, I showed my lack of self-control and maturity.
And.....
This taught me something about myself. It showed me that I am still a hothead, and as much as I talk about being peaceful and respectful, that is a contradiction. It showed me that I still have alot of work to do when it comes to my maturation process. I chided myself, because I talk about , but yet I don't always live by it, and I beat myself up for my lack of maturity and self-control.
And Yet.....
I had to realize that there is and continues to be a lesson in this life that I live, and I have to extrapolate that lesson, learn it so I don't make that error again. The other part of that is understanding that I am changing, just not in the manner that I want to, and that I have to course correct. I have to be BETTER in the ACTIONS I take, I have to be BETTER in the REACTIONS I make. I have to BE BETTER!!!!