01/28/2025
I almost gave birth to a 15cm fibroid two weeks ago.
After 3 months of debilitating pain and severe anemia, my new ob/gyn told me to go directly to the ER and not leave until I saw a surgeon. Flux waited hours while I had scan after scan. Turns out, the fibroid was actively coming out of my cervix. I was 10 cm dilated by the time they operated on me. They removed most of the one fibroid, but there’s *still* more inside me. My MRI results say many more.
Post surgery, I feel better than I have since 2023 and, while I’m thankful, it shows me just how much those muf**kas threatened to take from me. Not just my physical life, but my power, my spark, my light.
Between November and December, there were days where I could only cry and plead with God to take just a little of the pain away from me. Eating was an afterthought. Walking was a privilege. Work was non-existent. Heart failure was close. I retreated from everything and everyone, except Flux and Lowercase. I was ashamed that I was in such need.
I didn’t want them to worry, so I claimed “I’m fine, I’m okay” thinking it’s going to ease their mind, even as I’m doubled over, fetal position, gasping as another wave of pain overtakes me. Inhaling ibuprofen, then Tylenol. Flux rubbing my back, making sure I eat, driving Lowercase to school, making sure I’m comfortable. Lowercase learned to do her hair in a weekend because I couldn’t sit or stand up without dizziness.
All this bulls**t for the last 3 months because a fibroid thought it could enter the world through my womb.
I share this because 1) no one should normalize uterine pain, heavy periods, blood clots, or anything like that. If your cycle feels off, get it checked out!! I didn’t have insurance last year, so I found myself in a true predicament. Luckily, I found the women at the Center for Black Women’s Wellness () and Nurse Marla was the first to tell me something wasn’t right. $60 for a full wellness exam and Pap smear!
2) I need some jobs! 3 months is a crazy amount of time to not work. If you have leads, please link me! I’d rather work for mines, but you can also cashapp: $phyllisiller ✨🩷
